Week 2
The test showed two stripes. Clear laughter of heartfelt happiness rang out from my body. Jonny came into the bathroom and understood straight away. He lifted me up in his arms hugging me tightly. We laughed like children. We were those sun-filled children. We already knew about my pregnancy beforehand but were confirming it a second time for ourselves.
A true miracle has taken place. A divine plan. It’s almost unreal. I can’t quite believe it! Maybe I’m dreaming?! I don’t believe it…Have I really succeeded? Have we done it?! From now on I won’t be lonely, at least not for the next 9 months. Wherever I am, whatever place I’ll be going to, there’ll be another being with me; a friend in my belly.
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After a few days of travelling down my fallopian tube, the embryo attached itself to my womb latching onto its little chance to be the recipient of life. In spite of my hyperactive life filled with Replege, dance, flights, and tempestuous sex, the embryo had survived and taken root in me. That was the first test that it passed in life. Now I had to get used to the constant company; sleeping with a new being inside myself, eating, walking, swimming with it the whole time and being aware of my duality 24 hours round the clock.
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Two massive worlds are crammed into me and there is so little of the outside world …
I had never been this happy. Before I thought that I would be happy after publishing my first book, after setting up the Replege project or when I had earned my first million. But all that just gave me a short upsurge of joy that lasted a few minutes. True happiness was what I was experiencing now. Like a supernova explosion, a new star had lit up on my firmament – my womb. Crazy dances barefooted on the yacht with my beloved were now in the company of a third. Jumping on the soft seats on the deck I felt as light as a feather. I didn’t feel my weight but flitted above it. I united with the moon, the stars, the sea, the Universe. I was spinning in the dance of love to the rhythm of drums.
So much happiness was heaped upon me in one go; such a massive cosmic gift which I still had to accept. Sometimes we are given such big gifts by fate that it turns out we aren’t able to accept them. We can’t accommodate them and run away from them. Once we lose them we feel regret. But I had matured for this gift. Now I was a mother. And this is a completely different status for a woman, a new meaning and experience of herself. Now I was a true woman!