Nevertheless, the infantile personality abuses its body through overloads, improper nutrition, sleep deprivation, etc. Lack of communication with the body leads to ignoring its voice. And the body responds with pain. These are all auto-sadistic moments within auto-aggression. The outcome is natural – the body first hurts and then gets sick.
So, disease arises:
– as a consequence of auto-aggressive attacks on one's psyche, manifesting through psychosomatics;
– as a result of sadistic but unconscious attacks directly on the body through overload, deprivation of rest, exposure to risk, improper nutrition, and direct poisoning by alcohol, smoking, or drugs;
More often than not, both factors are combined and completely unrecognized by the individual. The connection to the body is lost because an overwhelming amount of time is spent outside of that connection – in the past, in the future, in fantasies and plans, in the news, and in other people's lives.
To regain this connection, one should spend more time where the body is physically located – in reality – listening to it and integrating into consciousness all the signals sent to the brain by the senses. I believe that staying in reality, identifying and controlling the “stream of consciousness,” and stopping internal accusatory dialogues are what effectively stop auto-aggressive manifestations. Practicing these skills is necessary, and you need to start now!
A person may be given a long and happy life without shocks and losses, but if they are anxious and depreciating, they will live this life unhappily, constantly worrying about the future and devaluing the present. The expectation of unhappiness is actually unhappiness – one experiences similar emotions. When they look back in old age, they will think: “Where was life itself? I didn't live at all”. So, the reward of a peaceful life can be poisoned by the venom of Ouroboros, because anxiety spoils the happiest life with the expectation of trouble, and devaluation turns it into “nothing.”
So, what is anxiety? I think it is defenselessness against the pressure of external reality. This pressure is the same for everyone, but some people feel it as excessive – it seems so to them. Apparently, this is an echo of the instability and unpredictable behavior of significant adults in childhood. Such people look at the world through the prism of illusion, where absolute happiness, peace, and security are perceived as the norm – this is the state of a baby in the womb. Anything that differs from this state of infantile “paradise” shifts the psyche into the area of fear. “What if I can't handle the pressures of reality?” – “Disaster will happen”.